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By: Anonymous
Date: 2023-08-20T00:33:25.752403Z
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Date: 2023-08-20T00:33:25.752403Z
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Date: 2023-08-20T05:18:27.693508Z
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Date: 2023-08-18T19:56:45.087879Z
Thats a big question to answer bc our view for ourselves doesn't match with others. Either is better or worse. I believe that if you know yourself then u can do or don't whats right or wrong. I was always proud of myself even for my mistakes or decisions that either was for my future or my personal matters. I am an introvert Sagittarius even at 37 i have those moments but I'm there whenever u need me, I'm your crying shoulder I'm ready to kill fory family and my loved ones. I will hear you i will tell you my opinion but the choise is yours. So I'm proud of me and myself bc i haven't let anything to change me. I'll always be Evi !!!! P.s DON'T ALLOW ANYONE AND ANYTHING TO CHANGE U
Date: 2023-08-20T04:10:05.371971Z
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Date: 2023-08-21T02:53:05.978963Z
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Date: 2023-08-19T04:35:33.801881Z
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Date: 2023-08-19T01:59:25.234510Z
When I achieve my goals that I have set out for myself and by others like my mentor who knows how to push me and allows me to make mistakes but is there when I need his advice. Me knowing that people who have said or even thought that I wasnt worth the time or energy to believe in are always proven wrong when I achieve my goals and they are still where they are at blamming everyone but themselves where they are. I have been around people who blame their life on the government not protecting them and giving others handouts but them when it's really about their choices in life of what they achive and don't achive. Everytime I achieve something I brag about it to myself everyday that "Hey I achieve that goal which I thought was so hard but really it was super easy so what's my next goal going to be and is it going to teach me a new skill or something new about myself that I just happen to wake up inside of me." That is how great people over come their problems and allow to improve themselves everyday. I also learn from not achieving goals that I need to find a different route to it because route a didn't work out for me but maybe route b will. Even if I fail from achieving the goal I know I try my hardest and I will be better next time I set that same goal. I also enjoy seeing the looks of my haters when they know that I'm achieving my goals and they arent because of their choices. It's all about believing in yourself and not listening to what others say about you that will make you succeed or fail. If you get the haters in your head with their negativity then they win but if you have them in your head as positive thoughts like "You wont make a million dollars in a year" instead you say "I wont make a million dollars in a year instead I will make a million dollars in 6 months." Then you have won the battle no matter what the out come is. Stay positive and use negative as the fuel for you to make your goals and so how much you have grown as a person.
Date: 2023-09-25T18:23:40.615015Z
Where to start? I am 59 years old. I chose to "procreate", during my four relationships with my wives or partners, Those that were born, went on to have kids (my grandkids). I also had other genetically connected people in my life.... Honestly, I can say that I don't believe "happiness" of any form, actually exists within me at all. Well, maybe it does, but only a miniscule amount that I have never found. You see, of all my 8 kids (includes my deceased first born), essentially only two of them have any kind of relationship with me. Now of those two, one relates to me more as a friend than a father as I was not very able to be around as he grew up so we don't have a father/son relationship but we do talk to each other at least but only when I initiate. The other child is my youngest child who is 11, is a special needs kid, and was abused physically and mentally by his mother. I am his "rock", so to speak and we are inseparable. After all, I raised, changed, fed, cuddled, entertained, etc. him. Mom did nothing but hurt him. All the rest of my spawn want nothing to do with me and some have forbid, their children (my grandkids), from talking to or associating with, me. The result: the development and strengthening of feelings and emotions such as anger, hate, resentment, disbelief, confusion, and shock, to name some but definitely NOT happy. As for the "other genetically connected people in my life", what most people refer to as "family", well, when I was relocated to where I live now (as decided by the one who gave birth to me, when I was 12 years old), I was immediately welcomed into what I was told was "family" but was not aware I was slapped with a blacksheep sticker right there, front and center, on my forehead that remained there. When I found the chance to look up various definitions of "family", not a single one mentioned anything about this black sheep label. I did look up the meaning of "black sheep" though and found some very un"happy" definitions/explanations about what it is. As a twelve year old, who was just uprooted from his birthplace and friends, I really could not understand or comprehend, why these people that I was told were my "family", were definitely NOT making me feel very welcome and why they placed this label on me. Now let's skip all the way right up to around the present day. I believe it was around five years ago, the female who gave birth to me, passed away. As a genetically connected individual should do, I attended her funeral and sat in the front row along with her daughter and grandson. The service began and as usual, the eulogy was read. When the list of her surviving children and family were read to all attendees, to my shock and disbelief as well as to the others in attendance, I was not mentioned or ever refered to, as one of her offspring. What I did notice though was that her daughter and grandson did NOT look shocked that my name was not mentioned. In fact, her "precious" grandson had leaned forward to look over at me with a great big smirk on his face and with a bit of a laugh. To explain why I said "precious" grandson in the previous sentence, well he was the one who was given my inheritance. You see, his mom was the executer of the Will and also was the one who was given all the pocessions of the recently deceased. I was promised a small sum of money. That of course, was diverted to her grandson by his mother, the executer. Since that event, I spoke with who "was" my aunt. I was told by her, that she knew about the issue of my name being left out as she was present when the eulogy was being written. She said she didn't want to get involved so she never said anything to me or even them. I also asked her about memories I had been having come back to me involving me being abused by her sister, the recently passed. She basically said the same thing about not wanting to get involved but she did stress, "Your mother loved you. She really did.". Suffice it to say, I felt it best that I begin breaking connections to a large number of genetically connected individuals. Since then, one of those individuals that I had started to trust and had put as my Power of Attorney, felt she would contact the authorities and make accusations of sexual assault, etc against me. Well, this was all investigated by the Police and the Childrens Aid. The investigation said the accusations were unfounded, and I was found innocent. The thought that she would do this knowing I could have my son taken away from me, and him away from the one who stopped the abuse he was getting. Shortly after the above fiasco, my father died. When he decided to leave us kids and my mom, I had no real understanding of what was going on and I was playing around on the back of his truck where he had loaded all his stuff. I got called to come say goodbye. As I was climbing down the side of the truck box, my small 6 year old foot knocked the air valve out causing the tire to go flat. Boy was he pissed at me. Suffice it to say, when he finally fixed it and started driving away froin his kids to go be with his "other", he left mad and pissed off at me. The sad part now is that he died hating and pissed off at me. You see, his "could-do-no-wrong" daughter had convinced him I had stolen a VHS tape of hers from when she went down to visit him. He decided to call me up and grilled me on the matter. I asked him, "Why are you believing her?" to which his response was "Why would she lie to me?". Shocked at this, I then countered with, "And why do you feel I would I lie to you?, to which I believe his answer was "Because she wouldn't!" or something like that. This result of all of that PLUS, many other happenings like those: feelings and emotions of utter shock, confusion, serious hatred, and anger, again just naming some but definitely NOT happy. I am alone in this god forsaken world to care for a beautiful little boy who did nothing to deserve any of the issues that he has been dealt. I get no help from what others call "family". Hell, my one offspring wanted to be paid minimum wage to come and help me. I should mention that do they help their mom at NO CHARGE whenever she needs help or assistance. Seriously???? I've asked many "friends" that everyone, including them, will tell you I have bent over backwards for those same "friends" countless number of times, and now I'm getting told "I wish I could but....." from all of them. You see, I got shafted by an injury while on the job. It has resulted in me becoming disabled (back got fractured) and now my vertabrae are now breaking on their own, the nerves in the spinal column and the ones leaving to go to other parts of the body, are getting crushed. Top it off, I'm highly opiate resistant so painkillers don't work. So I guess the honest answer really is, NOT A GOD DAMN THING! SERIOUSLY...SFA!
Date: 2023-04-22T14:19:24.752274Z
I had been depressed in the past and took antidepressants for a while. In the past, I had try mushrooms for partying and music festivals. A friend Recomended to try 42. Mushrooms that grows on coconut fiber and while they grow, high frequency music is been played until they harvest. I started my journey and gave it a try. Micro is not Xanax, is the opposite it wil bring to the surface what needs to be work on. Is feeling every thing the good and the not so good. Is been in contact with it all. For me it challenge at the beginning been very sensible, tons of crying. The it shifted, a balance. Relax, more focused in deep contact with me and my surroundings. It open a door for me to heal and to reconnect with myself. As any medicine is not a crouch, is a gift to be open and work on ourselves there is no magic pill or medicine. There are portals and medicine to guide us but at the end the real world is everyday, facing our fears, wildest dreams and living everyday as best as we can. It has definitely change d me and helped me through deep process.
Date: 2023-06-08T08:40:38.991934Z
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