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By: Anonymous
Date: 2023-08-20T00:33:25.752403Z
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Date: 2023-08-20T00:33:25.752403Z
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Date: 2023-08-20T05:18:27.693508Z
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Date: 2023-08-20T04:10:05.371971Z
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Date: 2023-08-18T19:56:45.087879Z
Thats a big question to answer bc our view for ourselves doesn't match with others. Either is better or worse. I believe that if you know yourself then u can do or don't whats right or wrong. I was always proud of myself even for my mistakes or decisions that either was for my future or my personal matters. I am an introvert Sagittarius even at 37 i have those moments but I'm there whenever u need me, I'm your crying shoulder I'm ready to kill fory family and my loved ones. I will hear you i will tell you my opinion but the choise is yours. So I'm proud of me and myself bc i haven't let anything to change me. I'll always be Evi !!!! P.s DON'T ALLOW ANYONE AND ANYTHING TO CHANGE U
Date: 2023-08-21T02:53:05.978963Z
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Date: 2023-08-19T01:59:25.234510Z
When I achieve my goals that I have set out for myself and by others like my mentor who knows how to push me and allows me to make mistakes but is there when I need his advice. Me knowing that people who have said or even thought that I wasnt worth the time or energy to believe in are always proven wrong when I achieve my goals and they are still where they are at blamming everyone but themselves where they are. I have been around people who blame their life on the government not protecting them and giving others handouts but them when it's really about their choices in life of what they achive and don't achive. Everytime I achieve something I brag about it to myself everyday that "Hey I achieve that goal which I thought was so hard but really it was super easy so what's my next goal going to be and is it going to teach me a new skill or something new about myself that I just happen to wake up inside of me." That is how great people over come their problems and allow to improve themselves everyday. I also learn from not achieving goals that I need to find a different route to it because route a didn't work out for me but maybe route b will. Even if I fail from achieving the goal I know I try my hardest and I will be better next time I set that same goal. I also enjoy seeing the looks of my haters when they know that I'm achieving my goals and they arent because of their choices. It's all about believing in yourself and not listening to what others say about you that will make you succeed or fail. If you get the haters in your head with their negativity then they win but if you have them in your head as positive thoughts like "You wont make a million dollars in a year" instead you say "I wont make a million dollars in a year instead I will make a million dollars in 6 months." Then you have won the battle no matter what the out come is. Stay positive and use negative as the fuel for you to make your goals and so how much you have grown as a person.
Date: 2023-08-19T04:35:33.801881Z
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Date: 2021-06-05T04:56:01.100797Z
At some point I think we all question our sexuality. More so when you have the hottest friends on earth and they become your closest persons. Since it's pride month I'll be sharing my personal journey on my sexuality up to this day. So, you know when you look back after all those years to the things you used to think or do and you think to yourself 'damn that was major LGBTQ vibes'. Well, That is how I often conclude my long walk down memory lane. I remember being a pre-school student and having a platonic friendship with both a girl and a boy who were cousins so they looked a lot a like ( I was 5,imagine wtf). Also,through primary school epochs I loved going to my dad's upper division classes to see the older girls he taught (he's a teacher) and to be spoiled by both the dudes and the girls since they all taught I was 'cute' around the age of 6(but who isn't). During primary school through std 1 to std 6 is where the struggle with self love begins or at least for me it goes way back to that point. Now I see it was the social impact that we all grew prisoners of, trying to force us into the norms of trying to compare yourself with other females and trying to 'attract the guys' because well, that was 'how it's supposed to be'. Ofcourse at first that mindset about being in a relationship wasn't there until a new student went into school and basically started to attract all the boys in the class. So I spent a lot of time trying to prove that I could have the guys fall for me just to feel I was pretty. Nevertheless I ignored the major crushes I had on the girls older than me at my school, and I did have a crush on one or two boys, my age and in my class. I used to be the teen who hated skirts more than anything so when it became a habit to wear jeans with a blue polo shirt since that was the school uniform color (blue) nobody even stopped me from doing so until graduation lol (that was so gay). So then I start highschool and again I'm chained by the societal norms of having a boyfriend because everybody had one. I dated 3 different guys through the four years of highschool one each form ofc I was never a cheater. During that period of time I barely used social media other than facebook and was more absorbed by the 'love' for my ex's, so much that my delusional self boxed my feelings towards girls and I never gave so much taught into the topic, also you barely heard about the LGBTQ community. (Will continue my life story in another chapter lol)
Date: 2019-06-12T19:26:40.257530Z
It’s sucks when life slaps you on the face making you realize something you didn’t even imagine was out there. Yes, it sucks, but sometimes, it’s completely necessary. Often, it’s the only way to make us open our eyes and change the course or our journey, the only way to make you hear what it’s been whispering to your ear all along. Will this do the trick? Not necessarily. It will all be up to us. On occasions, no matter who loud life screams at us or how hard it hits us, we still manage to avoid receiving the not so secret and riddle message it is trying to deliver. Yes, it will be all up to us. With each passing day, we decide the person we want to be, through the words we speak, through the thoughts we think, through the actions we take, through the lies or truths we live by, through the things we dare to listen and to the ones we cowardly ignore. I’ve had had a couple of days where life screams at you so loud and slaps you so hard it will be a fool game to ignore it. It sucked, but it was totally necessary. I’ve been so arrogant, so pride, and so self-centered, that I forgot all the blessing around me. I took them for granted. I forgot what a blessing it is to work on my terms and have time for those things that set my soul on fire. I forgot how lucky I am not to have to worry about the basic need. I took for granted the money I have earned. I’ve been self-centered and selfish. I’ve been immature and irresponsible, and I’ve been ignoring the consequences of it. I’ve been making some bad decisions. I’ve been lying to others and myself, forgetting my truths and getting ruled by my lies. I took my dream for granted. I took the love and support of the people that have been all along with me through thick and thin for granted. I’ve been arrogant to think that people have some kind of obligation to support my dream. I forgot all about humility, hard work, commitment, and positive energy. I forgot all about thankfulness. I have been disrespectful to the life I’m lucky enough to be living. I’ve been ungrateful. I’ve been ungrateful as hell. Life slapped me hard on the face and it sucked. But I’m thankful. I’m thankful I dared to listen. I’m thankful I chose to reflect in a time when not everything is lost, and I still get to turn this ship around. I’m thankful life is giving me a chance to do and be better. I’m thankful for the opportunity to grow and learn from these experiences. Will the feeling of the slap be enough? Am I a changed woman? Not even close. I still have to work on what led me to this in the first place; and even though acknowledgment is the first step to changing the pattern, I have a long way to go. In the last couple of days, I have felt a lot of things. I’ve felt stupid, silly, ashamed, angry with myself, doubtful, scared, sad, and some other things. But mostly, I feel thankful for the warm feeling of that outrageous, uncomfortable and immensely generous slap.
Date: 2021-06-28T02:31:21.972474Z
It took me two years to finally be here and still not with a clear mind I admit about my sexuality.Although I'm totally convinced that my family(both parents sides) would dissaprove of me liking girls because like I mentioned before they are very committed christians.I have learned to accept myself more in the past months than I ever would have in the years before.Finally I confided how I feel towards girls to two friends this time being dead serious because I always used to make a joke out of what was clearly my truth.It's really a different reaction to every person, one of my best friends already knew for a fact that I liked girls eventhough I just mentioned to her that I felt quite confused about my gender orientation.She told me to take my time trying to figure it out and she'll love me regardless.Another best of friends said she loves me and it changes nothing but there was this one comment that really got to my nerves and I pushed it away,I figured those type of statements are always going to be there and I know she didn't mean no wrong. She said that I probably need a good lay from both a female and a male to figure out what I like more, but reading through instagram posts on bisexuality made me realize quite a lot on the topic and the usual comments people make about it. At this point I feel no need to rush into putting a label on myself, nor do I know with certainty that I only like girls or both male and female however, I know for a fact I'm not straight. It's crazy because we're drilled into our heads since a young age that we're to know what we want at the age of 20 and above like we can't change at all as soon as we enter our twenties. I'm 21 still trying to figure this out and all I can say is that if you don't place your self love first and commit to loving yourself more everyday you might end up facing very gloomy days and it's not fair for anybody to go through that. This is the first time I openly share my sexuality with others and the good thing is 'story place' is as anonymous as you wish for it to be. Ending this(I know I've bored you enough and this is long) I wanna share this awkward thing that happened to me the other day.My siblings and I were watching a movie and My brother carelessly said that I'm a lesbian it wasn't the first time he blurts it out, but this time my parents were walking in the living room as he said it, then my sister speaks up saying I'm bisexual because I like both male and females. I swear I'm so thankful the lights were off because I felt my face heat up at their statements and I couldn't even defend myself I had no answer and I think I stuttered a bit lol. My parents looking like they were all ears in, just stood staring at everybody.Then my younger sibling blurts out "y que importa que es digo? No iva hacer un difference"( "and what does it matter what she is? I mean it wouldn't make a difference") and I felt my smile grow big on its own and everybody even my parents started laughing. Even before this ordeal I'm convinced my parents would love me regardless of my sexual orientation,that wouldn't change their love towards me but they'll have a hard time accepting,if they ever do accept, my sexual orientation.It would very much scare them I'm sure because of all the problems I can face in this messed up world being part of the lgbtq community and the hateful comments of other family members or church members.Was going to post this yesterday but could never leave Ivana hanging😭❤